I hate that I can’t stop thinking about you. I hate that I let you in. I hate that you know so much about me. I hate that I was open and vulnerable with you. I hate that I did this to myself. I hate that I trusted you. I hate that I still have daydreams of us together. I hate that you were able to drop me so easily for someone more convenient. I hate that you thought it was appropriate to tell me about him. I hate that I let you manipulate me so easily. I hate that I find you exceedingly attractive. I hate that I still crave your attention. I hate that physically being around you repulses me. I hate that you led me on with so many innuendos and sexual language. I hate that you want to be friends. I hate that I have to work with you.
I hate so much about our relationship, and wish I could go back in time and stop it before it ever happened. I know this is all my fault. I allowed this to happen. I let my emotions open up for you. It doesn’t matter what I warned you about, you were not kind to me in the end. All I want now is for all this to go away. For you to go away. To leave me alone. To stop interfering in my life. I want to heal and move on.
Trust is a sacred thing, and I handed it out too easily. I will never make that mistake again.