Yesterday I spent thinking a lot about Meredith. She added a lot to my life. I added a lot to hers. One thing I was thinking about was what it would look like if we were able to continue our affair.
Maybe it wouldn’t be an affair though. Maybe it would be more of an arrangement. Meredith isn’t happy in her marriage because something big is missing. I’m the same in my marriage. Would it be possible to stay married and keep our families together yet meet up periodically to physically and mentally enjoy each other?
On one hand it would be nice. I would be quite happy with that. It would cheer up Meredith as well. Could our spouses understand that we still love them and our families yet we need this outlet with each other? Would they at least enjoy that we feel whole and happy? Likely not.
On the other hand it really wouldn’t be enough. What we want from a relationship together is so much more encompassing. An all the time type of d/s relarionship. Those would be difficult to satisfy with periodic meetips.
In the end the whole thing is just a fantasy. Back to the same place. Deal with my marriage first.