I’m going to call her this week. I know, this thing is pulling in so many directions, but I can’t stop thinking about her. We are finally starting to get some separation, but I promised her I would reach out in April. It’s almost April. I don’t want a random unplanned phone call to be our touch base. I want a calm considered time together where we can be honest without other pressures.
The phone call I want to use in order to setup another meeting with her in April. Preferably face to face. That is the best form of communication, and I believe what is needed here. Is it risky? Yes. We can barely keep our hands off each other.
She will be worried of her husband’s reaction if he finds we were together. He will assume we had sex anyway. I understand, but I will need her to end our relationship rather than shortchange our touch base. We left too much on the line.
What do I want from this meeting? I really have no idea. I constantly flip back and forth between telling her it’s over; putting it on hold until summer; and trying to continue the affair. There are a million factors to consider. I just need to talk to her. Then we can plan our next steps.
It may very well be that she tells me it’s over. I must be prepared for that. Really hard to imagine. But you never know.