I have to say the last week has been tough emotionally. I’ve really been going back and forth quite frequently. There will be an entire day that I feel absolutely certain that Meredith and I are finished. That I’m actually growing apart from her and maybe able to let her go.
Then I’ll go home and my wife will do something or say something that reminds me why I need to be with Meredith. Or I will read an article about finding the person who completes you, and everything thing in the article will point to Meredith rather than my wife. When that happens I feel strongly again that Meredith is in my future.
The inconsistency is killing me. I am a man who likes logic and answers. When I feel that there is a correct path to take I want to take it and move on. When that path keeps changing I become paralyzed. Emotions are not my strong suit. It’s a good thing I know this about myself. I use that knowledge to make sure I don’t act on anything until I’ve had time to let it simmer. If I start to feel one way for a number of days in a row then maybe I’ve decided.